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GRADUATE SCHOOL OF THE UNION INSTITUTE 440 EAST MCMILLAN STREET CINCINNATI, OHIO 45206-1947 THIS DISSERTATION HAS BEEN WRITTEN
TO SATISFY THE REQUIREMENTS OF MY PROJECT DEMONSTRATING EXCELLENCE by Kathleen Granville Damiani SOPHIA: EXILE AND RETURN
Submitted in Partial Fulfillment of the Requirement for the Degree of Doctor of Interdisciplinary Humanities with a Specialization
in Philosophy October 12, 1997
Sophia: Exile and Return by Kathleen Damiani 2
Sophia: Exile and Return
TABLE OF CONTENTS Introduction
Why Sophia? Wisdom--Light and Dark The Theme of Exile: Glyphs and Definitions Historical Context Beginning
the Sophianic Journey
Part I: Sophia's Historical Exile
Chapter 1: The Path of Crumbs Sophia's Trail The Dual Energy
of Sophia Finding the Crumbs
Chapter 2: Who is Sophia? Historical Context Sophia in the History of Religion Sophia's Relation to Other
Goddesses
Chapter 3: Sophia's Other Face: Hecate and Lilith Importance of the Dark Sophia Hecate Lilith
Part.
II: Individual Exile and the Vital Soul
Chapter 4: The Counterfeit Vital: A Box of Our Own Making
Chapter 5: Sophia's Exile: Historical, Collective, Individual Historical Exile of Sophia and Modern One-Sidedness
Individual Exile Collective Exile
Chapter 6: Who or What Is Cast Out?--An Examination of the Vital Soul Vital Soul as Individual Descriptions
of the Vital Part III: The Return of Sophia Sophia: Exile and Return by Kathleen Damiani 3
Chapter 7: Demeter and Kore and the Mysteries of Eleusis The Myth and the Mysteries Mysteries Interpreted
as Sophia's Return Myth and Meaning
Chapter 8: Weaving Sophia: The Circuit of Sophia Circuit of Sophia Weaving Sophia's Girdle: Ties That
Bind Sophia: Ogdoad, Spiral Circle, and World Symbol Food for Thought Sophia's Circuit and the Alchemy of
Relationship Chapter 9: Woman's Role in the Millennium Our Own Exile Is the Path to Sophia Eve, Lilith,
and the Serpent Eve as the Scapegoat of Western Civilization The Metaphorical World Bringing Humanity into Existence Who is
"Woman" and What Is Her Role in the Millennium? Chapter 10: Wisdom Thunder Power Magic Logos, the Speaking Out from the
Place of Experience Speaking Sophia, Doing Sophia, Magic Sophia Bride of the Bladed Thunder Chapter 11: The Power of Friendship
Turning, Turning, We Dance the Circuit of Sophia Where is Sophia? --The Crossroads Freedom to Respond Becoming Aware of
Our Own Exile Genius and Friendship Epilogue: Image and Inquiry
Illustrations Selected Bibliography Sophia:
Exile and Return by Kathleen Damiani 4 INTRODUCTION This is a portrait of a phenomenon that is at once embedded in the raw
stuff of life--death, fate, groups, violence, body, sex--yet elusive and mysterious as the unseen object of the longing of
the soul. I named it Sophia--or rather, she named herself in and through my experience as it deepened. Following my husband's
death, a number of synchronistic events arose in conjunction with trying to fathom this tragic web of circumstance. The more
I poked around, the more I was helped by myths, stories, symbols that pointed to a reality beyond consensus reality. I found
that while many people are helped by religion, it is possible to get help from the very circumstances in your life: they become
sources of information, requiring only a slight shift of attention or interest. In fact, it is the delivery of information
by events, via one's emotions, interest, or repulsion, that formulates itself into a different kind of knowledge, evoking
the figure of Sophia. This knowledge is available to each person who is open to the possibility that their life is much much
more than cultural conditioning would have us believe. My world collapsed when my husband Paul at the age of 32 died in an
explosion and fire. I felt abandoned by even my way of life--a way of life that acknowledged soul through daily meditation
and ongoing classes at his father's spiritual philosophy center. This philosophy center could not provide the container that
I needed for my grief and confusion, for the relentless urgency to understand. So here I was, a wife, a mother, a spiritual
seeker typical of millions in my generation, studying and meditating, thinking that I was living a non-collective, soul-saturated
life. I was suddenly catapulted out of this illusion. Within 24 hours of Paul's death, I was sitting alone in a relative's
cottage in a stupor. An image appeared in my imagination. It was a boat speeding through the water. Following it was a huge
wake. A message arose that the boat was his father, Anthony, a Sophia: Exile and Return by Kathleen Damiani 5 philosopher
and teacher whose spiritual genius had been noticed by his friend and advisor, the Dalai Lama. Another message drifted into
my mind and settled there: it was Anthony's "wake" that killed Paul. (I think of such messages as being like dream motifs:
some images can convey meanings that point out what the conscious mind misses.) Anthony being a yogi--one who intensifies
his consciousness to a great degree, much more so than us ordinary folk--his "boat" or psychic energy would be travelling
faster than other people's. The wake is an unintended effect generated by the power of good intentions and yogic discipline.
Although to this day, more than ten years later, I do not fully understand the meaning of these messages, the effect of them
(what Jung would call active imagination) was profound. It gave me a life raft. My future, my identity, my belief system,
my entire way of life, slowly dissolved with Paul's passing. I was being swallowed by the abyss that had yawned beside me
during the nine days of unspeakable, agonizing horror that he had to endure following the fire, in which he sustained 95%
third degree burns. While some people might say that such messages were the intellect's way of compensating for a meaningless
tragedy, I would say the reverse--that the refusal to allow for meaning or interior guidance is itself an intellectual construction,
one which demarcates self-constructed boundaries over what life should include and what it should reject. That such a message
might indeed be a compensation for my own incapacity to entertain the notion of brute chance--a "random accident" that statistically
will happen to a few people (as several relatives assured me)--did occur to me. I felt that it was important--maybe not to
me, maybe it was for the sake of my dead Paul--to find out why he died. On the other hand, there are limits to the human capacity
to see clearly into the soul's reasons, to see what is veiled from ordinary human understanding, despite the claims of mediums,
channelers, and visionaries. That is not to disclaim their experience of other dimensions, but rather that interpretation
of that experience remains dependent upon their level of understanding, their cultural conditioning, and their belief system.
I felt that either to believe the message uncritically or to capitulate to consensus reality was to shut down the very real
living quality of my need to understand more of the complexity of life than I currently was able to. Sophia: Exile and Return
by Kathleen Damiani 6 I think now that most of me was pulled into Hades, into the abyss, with Paul. The life raft that kept
me afloat was constructed of these messages that arose spontaneously and those that came from reading about myths and stories
that resonated with my feeling of being abandoned, of being exiled from every satisfaction, comfort, and love that most people
seemed to enjoy. Rather than just believe the message that came up that day following Paul's death--even though it did carry
with it a calm certainty--I decided to check it out, to investigate it and to find someone to talk to about it. Looking back,
I think this was healthy, to retain both the doubt and belief in its reality at the same time. The message was like a little
beacon of light in the abyss: it simply spoke, but what it was saying was beyond my capacity to understand. I went to New
York City to the Jung Institute Library where the most remarkable librarian, Doris Albrecht, took all of five minutes to find
an article when I asked her where I could find information on the meaning of wakes. This article (Schwartz et al, "On the
Coupling of Psychic Entropy and Negentropy") was a psychological analysis of wakes as entropy. Thus began my underworld journey.
It began with an urgent need to see the forces that erupted in my husband's death, forces that unfolded as this drama in which
I was the actor as well as the audience, with my past issues and interpretations the script. I stayed in our home one year,
unable to sleep at night, feeling the lurid horror surrounding our home. Inundated by synchronistic events and images but
unable to decipher their deeper scheme or meaning, I despaired of making sense of it there. One day, quickly, I decided to
leave. I took my two little boys, aged three and four, rented the house, and moved to Virginia to be near my mother. A number
of vivid dreams punctuated decisive turning points that led me to return to graduate school. Everywhere I turned in an effort
to heal, to not let myself become consumed and obsessed by the necessity to understand the daemonic terror that had devoured
Paul and destroyed our lives, I confronted fire. I entered a graduate program in Humanities with a specialization in Jungian
thought. Everything I studied in the graduate program brought up images, information, and synchronistic events that led me
deeper and Sophia: Exile and Return by Kathleen Damiani 7 deeper into the mystery of fire and its relation to the vital spark
within the person, equivalent to and source of, according to the Greeks, genius and sexuality. The fire path pointed to a
knowledge rooted in life and guarded by the dragon--the image of inertia, collective opinion that holds in its claws the radiant
jewel of human vitality. I received the M.A. in Humanities with a certificate in Jung Studies in 1991, from Old Dominion University,
Norfolk, Virginia. My thesis was entitled, "'But Where Shall Understanding Be Found?' Searching for Sophia, Personified Wisdom."
Doing the research was the high point of my life: all the "otherness" of being woman in the misogynist world of philosophy
and theology, of feeling inferior and marginalized, gradually went away, as the redistribution of power began to circulate.
There were reasons why the feminine was so threatening to these desiccated male theologians! Everything turned around, as
it dawned on me that what was truly worthwhile would never be welcomed by the status quo. Dogma and agendas are inimical to
wisdom. WHY SOPHIA? When I first heard about Sophia, she meant little or nothing. I was not moved to investigate her. I was
in graduate school and taking a philosophy course on nineteenth-century philosophers. I had to do a term paper on any thinker
covered that semester. With great reluctance and inertia I plodded to the library to gather material on Kierkergaard. I got
to the section and tried to overcome waves of nausea and fatigue. I had to leave and went to the reference section. I decided
to put off the assignment until the next day. I relaxed and began to poke around the Interpreter's Dictionary of the Bible.
I was randomly thumbing through, stopped and read the entry under "abzu" (the deep): here was the abode of Wisdom and Ea,
father of arts and creativity. All of a sudden, lots of connections were instantly made: Sophia was wisdom; abzu was the unconscious;
and Sophia was related to the source of creative inspiration, poetry and art. Wisdom and creativity paired! I changed the
topic of my paper: never mind Kierkergaard, I'd do Sophia: Exile and Return by Kathleen Damiani 8 Nietzsche's question "What
if Truth was a woman?"--truth being Sophia, personified wisdom. Her abode, abzu would correspond to Nietzsche's Dionysian
realm. The emotional part of this experience--the reason why it pulled me into it--I think was because not only were creativity
and inspiration interesting but their association with the feminine Sophia drew me right into my inferiority about being a
woman. Here was a place (the abzu quote) that associated all these things inside: my desire for understanding personified
as this feminine deity Sophia, my attraction to the unconscious, to creativity. I copied the quote, went home, spent the next
two weeks on the paper. The energy was abundant; I was "in the flow." What I discovered while doing the research on Sophia
was this: all the feelings I had had all my life of being different, of not fitting in anywhere, of an inability to fit into
groups, of the humiliation from hearing the cultural message of woman's inferiority and stupidity, all of these feelings were
stirred up into consciousness. The ejection from my lifestyle following Paul's death was not so unfamiliar, after all. What
the history of Sophia revealed was that she herself was exiled, pushed out, was neutered or masculinized by theologians. The
feeling of not being alone anymore, that out here in the trash bin was such a powerful, feminine presence was intriguing.
Imperceptibly, a shift began to happen in my own soul. I began to realize that the forces of exclusion and oppression were
the same ones that banished Sophia from the mainstream. I was in good company in exile! The path through Hades led me into
the academic world, but what I found in the research led me into mythology and symbols. It is this back and forth from personal
experience to study, from myth and symbol to the struggle to understand, that carved a "twisting circuit of Sophia" through
my life. Here's an example: Our entire Western civilization is based upon Homer's story of the battle of Troy. Throughout
history, from Alexander the Great to Napoleon, generals and scholars and ordinary people have visited Troy and sung eloquently
about the heroism and battles that gave birth in Homer's epic poems to our Western consciousness. But what few people notice
(except mythologists and archetypal psychologists) is that the ten-year battle fought over Helen originated in a beauty contest
between the goddesses Hera, Athena, and Aphrodit
VISITED ME AT MY APT IN ALAMEDA, CA AND TOLD ME THINGS HE COULD OF NOT
KNOWN THAT WERE IN MY APT SUCH AS THE PICTURES OF HERA AND ZEUS -
CRIVELLI ITALIAN SALSA PRODUCTS INTERNATIONAL
RODUCTS INTERNATIONAL
THIS IS A TRUE STORY
OF
THE DIVINE COUPLE
AND
THE MOTHER'S OF DARKNESS
ON
THIS DAY JANUARY 29, 2004 1:00 PM
MICHAEL RAYMOND MORAN
THE COUSIN
OF
SOPHIA OF WISDOM III
CAROLINE E. KENNEDY - CAROLINA KENNEDIA
VISITED ME AT MY APT IN ALAMEDA, CA AND TOLD ME THINGS HE COULD OF NOT
KNOWN THAT WERE IN MY APT SUCH AS THE PICTURES OF HERA AND ZEUS -
CRIVELLI ITALIAN SALSA PRODUCTS INTERNATIONAL
CRIVELLI ITALIAN SALSA P
I FEEL THAT JFK,JR OR LAWRENCE AS JFK,JR
AND
SHARI BROBECK
HAVE BEEN HAVING AN AFFAIR AND HE PAYS HER 5,000.00 EVERY 5 MINUTES FOR
BLOW JOBS AND SHE MAKES ABOUT 300,000.00 A DAY DOING THIS AND HAS THE ABILITY WITH THE HELP OF A CHARGER TO ASCEND AND DESCEND
FOR HIS PLEASURE WHEN HE WANTS IT
SHE BELIEVE SHE IS THE HOLY SPIRIT AND HERE IS WHY
SHARI WAS HELPING ME MOVE FROM MY HOUSE ON TARRYTON WHERE I WAS JUDGING
SPIRITS BECAUSE MY HOUSE WAS ON A MAGNET LAY LINE AND SHE SAW HIM IN MY BEDROOM AND HE WAS A SHADOW PERSON AND GOT SCARED
AND RAN DOWN THE HALL TO MY OFFICE AND LEFT
THEN SHARI AND MY MOTHER TEAMED UP TO TAKE ME TO A PARANORMAL DOCTOR BECAUSE
THEY THOUGHT I WAS GOING CRAZY AND WANTED ME TO LEAVE MY HOUSE AND THIS MADE LAWRENCE - JFK,JR REALLY MAD AND HE MADE HER
SMALL AND TRIED TO PUT HER IN THE CONTAINER OF EVIL IN MY BODY BUT SHE GOT OUT AND STOLE MY ABILITIES TO ASCEND AND DESCEND
RODUCTS INTERNATIONAL
CRIVELLI ITALIAN SALSA PRODUCTS INTERNATIONAL
I HAVE POWER PICTURES OF ANCIENT SYMBOLS HANGING IN A ROOM THAT COULD NOT
HAVE BEEN SEEN WHEN YOU FIRST WALK IN
AND
WE HAVE NOT SPOKEN IN MANY YEARS HE LIVES IN LOS ANGELES
I ASKED HIM TO FOLLOW ME AND SHOWED HIM WHAT HE WAS ENVISIONING
SOPHIA OF WISDOM III - CAROLINE E. KENNEDY - CAROLINA KENNEDIA
I FEEL THAT JFK,JR OR LAWRENCE AS JFK,JR
AND
SHARI BROBECK
HAVE BEEN HAVING AN AFFAIR AND HE PAYS HER 5,000.00 EVERY 5 MINUTES FOR
BLOW JOBS AND SHE MAKES ABOUT 300,000.00 A DAY DOING THIS AND HAS THE ABILITY WITH THE HELP OF A CHARGER TO ASCEND AND DESCEND
FOR HIS PLEASURE WHEN HE WANTS IT
SHE BELIEVE SHE IS THE HOLY SPIRIT AND HERE IS WHY
SHARI WAS HELPING ME MOVE FROM MY HOUSE ON TARRYTON WHERE I WAS JUDGING
SPIRITS BECAUSE MY HOUSE WAS ON A MAGNET LAY LINE AND SHE SAW HIM IN MY BEDROOM AND HE WAS A SHADOW PERSON AND GOT SCARED
AND RAN DOWN THE HALL TO MY OFFICE AND LEFT
THEN SHARI AND MY MOTHER TEAMED UP TO TAKE ME TO A PARANORMAL DOCTOR BECAUSE
THEY THOUGHT I WAS GOING CRAZY AND WANTED ME TO LEAVE MY HOUSE AND THIS MADE LAWRENCE - JFK,JR REALLY MAD AND HE MADE HER
SMALL AND TRIED TO PUT HER IN THE CONTAINER OF EVIL IN MY BODY BUT SHE GOT OUT AND STOLE MY ABILITIES TO ASCEND AND DESCEND
RODUCTS INTERNATIONAL
CRIVELLI ITALIAN SALSA PRODUCTS INTERNATIONAL
I HAVE POWER PICTURES OF ANCIENT SYMBOLS HANGING IN A ROOM THAT COULD NOT
HAVE BEEN SEEN WHEN YOU FIRST WALK IN
AND
WE HAVE NOT SPOKEN IN MANY YEARS HE LIVES IN LOS ANGELES
I ASKED HIM TO FOLLOW ME AND SHOWED HIM WHAT HE WAS ENVISIONING
SOPHIA OF WISDOM III
SOPHIA OF WISDOM III
OF WIDSOM III - CAROLINE E. KENNEDY - CAROLINA KENNEDIA
"Impossible Dream"
To dream the impossible dream To
fight the unbeatable foe To bear with unbearable sorrow And to run where the brave dare not go To right the unrightable
wrong And to love pure and chaste from afar To try when your arms are too weary To reach the unreachable star This
is my quest To follow that star No matter how hopeless No matter how far To fight for the right Without question
or pause To be willing to march, march into hell For that heavenly cause And I know If I'll only be true To
this glorious quest That my heart Will lie peaceful and calm When I'm laid to my rest And the world will be better
for this That one man, scorned and covered with scars, Still strove with his last ounce of courage To reach
the unreachable, the unreachable, The unreachable star And I'll always dream The impossible dream Yes, and
I'll reach The unreachable star
This is the first english translation of Dr. Annette Zgoll’s german, academic
translation of Nin-me-sara found at the beginning of her book, "Der Rechtsfall der En-hedu-Ana im Lied Nin-me-sara"(1997), "En-Hedu-Ana's Lawsuit in the poem Nin-me-sara". It is a combined effort between myself and Tatjana
Dorsch, who has very accessibly translated the whole book for me. It is the most recent, updated translation of Enheduana’s
most famous poem since Dr. William Hallo’s grounbreaking translation, "The Exaltation of Inanna" in 1968. Dr. Zgoll has generously given of her time and corrected it and allowed me to post it here.
1. Queen of all the ME, too numerous to count, rising forth as resplendent light [1]
2. Woman [2], most driven, clothed in frightening radiance, loved by An and Uras,
3. An's nugig [3], you are above all the great SUHkese-breastplates,
4. You, who love the right aga-crown [4], who is suited for the en-priest-hood,
5. empowered
with all of its all seven ME --
6. my queen! You are the guardian of the great ME!
7. You have uplifted the
ME, you have held the Me in your hand.
8 You have gathered the ME, you have clasped the ME to your chest.
9
Like a dragon you cast venom upon the enemy land.
10 In the regions where you thundered like Iskur, Asnan no longer
exists because of you
11 Flooding waters surge down on such an enemy land
12 You are the supreme one in Heaven
and Earth, you are their Inana!
[1] This
can also connote through homophone and homonym: "Queen of the countless battles, (as) a raging storm rising"
[2] Or we can read the sign of 'munus-zi' as 'zirru': “female”( bird). This is a title
of Ningal, that is of Enheduanna. - Dr. Joan Westenholz has identified zirru as a title of the goddess Ningal, used
by Enheduanna in her article, “Enheduanna, En-Priestess, Hen of Nanna,Spouse of Nanna”. In this article she deduces
that Enheduanna is endowed with this title of zirru to convey that she is the human embodiment of Ningal.
[3] nugig is a title of Inanna in the context of the exercise of power or the broadening of power,
important in the context of legitimization of rulers. -One of Dr. Zgoll’s theories is that Enheduanna herself,
as en-priestess of Nanna in Ur, is endowed with the power to legitimate a king’s rule.
[4] I.e., Inanna loves the aga-crown/cap (object). It can also be read as: the aga-crown/cap (subject)
loves Inanna, whereby then the aga metonomycal stands for Nanna, compare chapter 3.4.-- The attribute “right”
is the same word as in line 2 “driven” , it can be understood here also as a replacement for ‘thirst for
creating’. (dictionary definition of metonymy- one word is put for another that it
suggests; as, we say, a man keeps a good table instead of good food; we read Virgil, that is, his poems; a man has a warm
heart, that is, warm affections)
13 Unceasing raging fire, you shower down upon the land of Sumer
14 Queen, whom An gave
the ME, you ride atop a beast
15 Authorized by the fate-determining word of An, you utter words.[5]
16
The great rites are yours-- who else could fathom their meaning?
17 Destroyer of enemy lands- you empowered
the storm
18. Beloved of Enlil, you let terror reign over the land of Sumer
19. You stood prepared, waiting
to fulfill the orders of An
20. My Queen! All enemy lands bow down at the sound of your roar!
21. Under
your fearsome radiance, your terrible glare and storm, the people
22. turned their steps toward you in mute dread
23.
-- of all the ME, you had grasped the most terrible and deeply stirring--
24. Mankind [6] opened the gateway of
tears, on your account [7]
25. They must walk the path to the house of all the great laments, on your account.[8]
[5] Or: “Who, authorized through the fate-determining mouth of An, says
words”.
[6] In reference to nam-lu-ulu (mankind, men) line 21.
[7] literally: “to you” (or
because of you)
[8] literally: “to you” (or because of you)
26. Because of you [9], all [10] had been ripped away even before the battle.
27. My Queen!
With your strength a tooth can even crush flint [11]!
28. Like an invasive storm you barge in.
29. With the
howling storm you howl.
30. With Iskur you thunder.
31. With raging thunderstorm you do exhaust,
32.
while your own foot has never yet tired.
33. With the harp of laments one [12] strikes up a song of lamentation
34.
My Queen! The Anuna, the great gods,
35. Like terrified [13] bats, fluttered away from you to the top of the mounds
of ruins.
36. They could not withstand your devastating glance [14].
37. They cannot stand up against the fright
on your brow.
39. Your hostile heart has become too violent to
pacify!
40. Queen, has your soul [16] really been satisfied? Queen, is your heart really now filled with joy?
41.
Your rage does not cool, great daughter of Suen! [17]
42. Queen, greater than the enemy land-- who would dare take
away any of your territory? [18]
43 You take the ‘mountain range’ [19] into your territory: its Asnan
is no longer.[20]
44 Fire was set against its great gate. [21]
45 Blood flowed in its river for you, its
people had to drink it for you. [22]
46 Their troops, all gathered together, [23] had to surrender themselves to
you.
47 Even their elite troups, united together, had to be struck down for you.
48 Even their strong men-
all of them, had to stand before you [24]
49 In the town’s places of pleasure, a storm rages.
50 They
hunt down their best men as captives for you.
[15] Literally
‘cool’ with connotation ‘refresh’.
[16] Literally also “liver”, “stomach’.
[17]
Another translation possibility: “Rage (glowing) and not cooling, great daugher of Suen!”
[18] Literally:
“your earth”.
[19] Compare chapter 3.6.2.
[20] Some texts: “When you.... the ‘mountain
ranges’” LaC: “you looked angrily upon the enemy land , ....”; UnH “When you looked angrily
at the enemy land”.
[21] UrB: “in ihre (their, her, your) great temple”.
[22] 2 text segments:
“they have nothing to drink”.
[23] Other translation possibility, also in the following lines” “in
their fear”.
[24] NiW: “stood in front of you”.
51. The city, which would not say “This land is yours!” [25]
52. where the people
did not say “He is your loving father!”--
53. He has spoken your fate-determining word [26]: the territory
is restored beneath your foot.
54. Then care [27] disappears from within, from their stall.
55. That woman
there - she no longer speaks of love with her spouse.
56. At night she no longer holds counsel with him.
57.
She no longer reveals her innermost self to him , which holds the hope of future life[28].
58. Aggressive wild
cow, great daughter of Suen,
59. Queen, greater than heaven- who would dare take any of your territories away from
you?
[25] NiMM and LaB: “The enemy city, which
has not said “To you”
[26] Variant: “ spoken from your fate-determining word”.
[27]
Another word variant yielded the translation: “from the mother love”. Literal translation: “Then... the
foot is slipped”.
[28] Literally: “the fate-determining thing of her insides”.
60 The Great queen (NIN.GAL) of queens, born for the rightful [29] ME,
61 born of a fate-laden
body, you are even greater than your own mother,
62 full of wisdom, foresight, queen over all lands,
63.
who allows existence to many, I now strike up your fate-determining song!
64 All powerful divinity, suitable for
the ME, that which you have said magnificently is the most powerful! [31]
65. Of unfathomable heart [32], oh highly
driven woman [33], of radiant heart, your ME [34], I will list for you now!
66. Into my fate-determining Gipar [35],
I had entered for you.
67. I, the en-priestess, I, En-hedu-Ana [36].
68. While I carried the basket, I struck
up the song of jubilation,
69. as though I had not lived there [38], they offered the death sacrifice. [37]
70.
I came close to the light, there the light became scorching to me.
71. I came close to the shadow, there it was
veiled by a storm.
72. My sweet mouth became venomous [39].
73. That with which I gave delight, turned to dust.
[29] See the opening of line 4: the adjective “right”
also comprises the connotation of true powerfulness.
[30] The goddess Ningal. Literally: “as her own mother”.
[31]
Simultaneously valid to the version: ”What you have spoken in as great a manner, is the ‘most powerful’.”,
i.e. “No one can become more praised than you”.
[32] By the use of “heart” the connotation
of “Anger” from the context of line 38-41is not to be overlooked.
[33] NiRR: ‘zirru’, “(bird)woman”;
this version is also possible in the parallel text. It is a title of Ningal, that is, Enheduanna; compare with chapter
6.1.
[34]NiRR: “the fate-deciding ME.” LaB, UnC: ”the rightful ME”.
[35] A part of the
temple complex of the moongod in Ur, which encompasses the residence of the en-Priestess and the shrine of Ningal.
[36]
The name means translated “En,Ornament of An”. Compare to chapter 4.5.
[37] UrB, UrG, LaB, write euphemistically
instead “the beautiful place”. NiRR: “One of them has set down my meal (for the gods)”. NiA: “.....one
of them offered, on his account as if I had never lived there.”
[38] Literally: “Haven’t I not
lived there?”
[39] This version is in Text NiC and Text NiHHH, all other texts have one of the homophonic
expressions. NiRR writes “bitter”.
74. My fate with Suen and Lugal-Ane,
75. report it to An! May An resolve it for me!
76.
Report it to An immediately. An will resolve it for us!
77 "The Lady will tear away the destiny of Lugal-Ane.
78.
At her feet lie hostile land and flood.
79. She is truly mighty- she will make the town tremble before her.
80.
Go (before the court), so that she will be calm in her heart for me!"[40]
81. En-hedu-Ana am I, I will now
say a prayer to you.
82. My tears, like sweet beer
83. I now shed them freely for you, fate-determining Inana,
"Your judgement!" I will say to you. [41]
84. As for ASimbabbar, concern yourself not!
85. While changing
the purfication rites of the fate-determining An, he [42:Lugalane] altered everything for him,
86. he tore away
the Eana from An!
87. He showed no awe for the most venerable God (AN)!
88. This house, whose abundance he [43:AN]
was not sated with, whose beauty he had not tasted,
89. he [44:Lugalane] turned this house into a despised home
for him!
90. All the while, upon entering, as if he were the companion, he approached me with envy! [45]
91.
My driven, divine, wild cow! You must drive away this 'someone', you must seize this 'someone'!
92. In this
place where life is made possible-- what am I?
93. This rebellious territory, despised by your Nanna: An should
force them to surrender!
94. This city-- An should strike it down!
95. Enlil should curse it!
96. The
mother shall not soothe her crying child!
[40] In other
texts: "so that she calms her heart for me."
97. Queen! The laments which were struck up over the land, [46]
98. your ship of wailing should
be left behind in the enemy land! [47]
99. And because of my fate-determining song -- must I die? [48]
100.
I-- my Nanna has cared not for me [49].
101. In the rebellious land, they completely and utterly destroyed me.
102.
ASimbabbar most certainly has not passed a final judgement upon me!
103. Has he spoken it-- does it mean anything?
Has he not spoken it-- does it mean anything?
104. After he stood there in triumph, he expelled me from the
temple.
105. He made me fly like a swallow from the window- my life was consumed --[50]
106. and so I must
go to the thorny undergrowth of the enemy land.
107. He tore the rightful aga-crown [51] of en-ship from me.
108.
Handing me a dagger, he said, "This is now your ornament!" [52]
109. One and only Queen, beloved of An,
110.
Mighty is your fate-determining heart, for my sake, may it be turned to its place! [53]
111. Beloved wife of Usumgal-Ana
[54],
112. From the base to the zenith of heaven, you are the great Queen (NIN.GAL),
113. the Anuna have
submitted to you.
114. From birth you were the smaller queen,
115. the Anuna, all the great gods-- how you
have surpassed them!
116. The Anuna kiss the ground before you with their lips.
117. My own trial is not yet
over, but a stranger sentence surrounds me as though it were my sentence.
[46] Or: "the lamentations, which were established".
[47] LaB: "should be approached".
[48]
LaB: "they will die".
[49] UrB: "has not decided [my] verdict".
[50] NiU, NiDD: "He consumed my life."
[51]
UnB: "the right garment".
[52] 2nd Version: "This will be pushed against you (like horns of a bull)”.
[53]
This turn (idiom) is a regular formula of the heart-soothing of the gods, which in this context agrees with the similar
sounding: "may it be ... turned to its territories".
[54] NiRR:"The beloved wife of An [has...], beloved [ ] of
Ama[-sumgal-Ana]".
118. To the radiant bed [55], I did not stretch out my hand.
119. Nor did I reveal the words
of Ningal to that 'someone' [56].
120. The radiant en -priestess of Nanna am I.
121. My Queen, beloved of An
[57], may your heart be calmed for me.
122. It shall be known, it shall be known: Nanna has proclaimed no decree, "It
is yours" is what he has said!
123. That you are as high as heaven, shall be known!
124. That you are as wide
as the earth, shall be known!
125. That you anhilate rebelling territiories [58], shall be known!
125a. That
you roar against the enemy lands, shall be known!
126. That you crush the leaders, shall be known!
127. That
you devour corpses like a predator, shall be known!
128. That your glance is terrible, shall be known!
129.
That you raise your terrible glance, shall be known!
130. That your glance is sparkling, shall be known!
131.
That you are unshakable and unyielding, shall be known!
132. That you always stand triumphant, shall be known!
133.
That Nanna has not proclaimed (the decree), that he has said, "It is yours",
134. my Queen- it has made you greater,
you have become the greatest!
135. My Queen, beloved of An, I will announce all of your wrath![59]
136.
I have heaped the coals, prepared the purification rites,
137. The Esdam-ku [60] stands ready for you- will
not your heart calm down for me? [61]
138. Since the heart was full, too full, great Queen, I birthed it for you.
[62]
139. What was said to you at midnight,
140. the cult singer shall repeat it to you at midday:
141.
"Because of your captive spouse, because of your captive protégé,
142. your anger has grown large, your heart
has not calmed down."
[55] NiDD:"In my radiant bed".
[56]
UrB:"I will not say anything to him".
[57] NiA, UnB: "You are the beloved queen of An"
[58] UrA, LaC: kur.
[59]
NiYY:"before your throne".
[60] The name of the Inana-temple in Girsu/Lagas; beside it is also professed a place
in various Inana-temples.
[61] Other texts:"May your heart be calmed/refreshed for me!"
[62] The meaning is
first of all the text of NMS itself; for a broader translation compare with Chapter 7.2.
143 The Queen, the strong one, the ruler over the gathering of the 'en' [63],
144 she did
accept her prayer and sacrifice [64] .
145 The heart of fate-determining Inana has turned to its place.
146
The light was sweet for her, delight was spread over her, full of abundant beauty was she.
147 As the light of
the rising moon (NANNA), she too was clothed in enchantment.
148 Nanna came out [65] to rightfully gaze (at her)
in awe,
149 (he and) her mother Ningal blessed her,
150 and then the gate post said unto her "Be hailed!"
151
What each said to the nugig is exalted.
152 Destroyer of enemy lands, endowed with the ME from An,
153 My
Queen, draped in enchantment, (to you) Inana be glory!
[63]
'en' is a title for priests and rulers.
[64] In Sumerian this is only one lexeme. (=word)
[65] Another
possible translation: (he) "led her out".
I have added a few explanations
of her research in italics beneath some of the footnotes. For those unfamiliar with the Sumerian terms, Dr. Zgoll’s
literary paraphrase will be most helpful and I will be posting it in the near futur. I have also taken the liberty
in presenting the long lines of the poem as shorter pairs of lines whenever possible, to facilitate reading the poem. ---------------------------------------